I usually spend some time on Sunday mornings (since I've not been going to church) reading the Word, journaling/praying but yesterday I was at Nadia's so I didn't do that...and I feel frazzled. I just wrote an e-mail to Hill explaining how I feel about my job search/career hunt (demoralized, hopeless, frustrated) and I totally teared up at my desk and had to go to the bathroom to fix myself up. Everytime I think about it I don't really analyze my feelings I analyze the situation, which gets me thinking about how I can change the situation, which gets me really frustrated because I need to have some solid answers on how I'm feeling, what I want to do, etc. But I don't have those answers. I want to take pictures, write cards, record/produce/engineer music, learn graphic design, have a fair trade tea store... I don't want to be here (at this job) anymore. I don't want to go back to school. I don't want to interview anymore. I'm spent.

On a lighter note...I am working on a mad crush on John Krasinski from The Office (pictured-I figured the iPod picture was appropriate. I got excited anyway). He seems so nice! I just read an article saying he still has a crush on someone from college...ouch! Well let's hope she stays taken. Comin' to getcha John! Read this if you're interested... http://www.givememyremote.com/forum/viewtopic.php?p=177 This forum has the whole article from The Improper Bostonian from Dec 05.